a beautiful day!! SO lets go PLAY!

Reese was soooooo excited to get her pics takin! what a little POSER! So sweet and so kind!
Quincy follows EVERYTHING Reese does, so of course Reese Poses and Q does too!! She is such a sweet, and life loving kiddo! She sure loves her kids!!
So these two were sitting down while the older kids rode their bikes up and down this little retention basin and they sat here and played house! I love to listen to their conversations with eachother!
Awwww my BOYZ!! These two are seriously 2 peas in a pod! So polar opposite in so many ways , but the def balance eachother out! Sooooo sweet and gentle, until one of them gets a swift kick in the bawllz, then game on!! They wrestle it out and beat it out and act like nothin ever happened!
Rhett figured out how to pop a wheelie! He shows me EVERYTIME we go outside! He loves to be outside, surprisingly he hasnt found a sport he LOVES yet......Still working on that one!
Kali Ray! such a life filled kid! Loves life and wants a piece of everything it has to offer! Such a great big sister and friend to her little sisters as well! mmmmmmawah!

It was a BEAUTIFUL day today, soooo we got up, cleaned the casa after a night of playing with Tami and her super cute kiddos, and decided today was a PERFECT day to load up the bikes in the back of my car, bungee cord the tailgate and find a park that will suit all the members of my circus! We went to in-n-out first and got a box of burgers and fries and set out to find the PERFECT park! Well we found one that had a slide and a bike path!
I totally LOVED seeing these 5 kiddos play and giggle with each other!
I am sooooo very BLESSED to have such great kiddos! They have no filter,
their love is pure and untainted.
When they say "I LOVE YOU" you feel it, DEEP down and REAL!
When they are with their dad I miss them, ALOT!!
That may be one of the only times I actually get REAL sleep,
but I awake in my big cozy bed alone and without my snuggle bugs!
I am grateful that I have such fun and energetic kiddos, that soak up "mom time" like they do!
Thanks for the amazing Saturday guys! I love you, with NO NUMBERS!!
(Reese used to describe her love that way cause when I would say I loved her she would ask if I loved her 100, and I used to tell her there are not numbers high enough to describe how much love I have. To her 100 is SOOOOO much!)

Chanocho!! Let me borrow some of your Swwweats

So my kiddos LOVE to have movie night with me, and I obviously do as well! I love to hear them laugh outloud, hysterically at Jack Black in NAcho (one of my very favs) or at Napoleon saying "tina ya fat lard come eat your dinner!" these are the moments that I sure hope I dont loose, or forget! What if I am old and I dont remember the OUTLOUD laughs and priceless GIGGLES these members of my circus create?! I just want them all to be happy, healthy and laughable FOREVER!! I dont ever want them to have experiences that would ever tarnish those things. We had a discussion the other day about how as parents. ya you, we will ALL, EVERY SINGLE one of us ruin some thing for our kids and change the way they think, whether we mean to or not. It just happens. I just hope that they see how much I love and care for them, and how I would give anything in the whole world to be able to bottle their little giggles and have them forever.
Chase has got one of the BEST napoleon impressions! No matter where we are if he says anything like napoleon i bust up! Love that kid! Love them all! at the end of the day i just want them all to know it, deeply know it!
XOXO
Em

Draggin

So this week I have been draggin!! Last week I was on a roll, getting crap done and feeling good doing it! This week? not so much. In fact the 30th was my anniversary, 13 years, and i tried to just stay busy with some good friends to not think about it so much. Dont know what is harder the fact that its 13 whole years or that I lost out on something that I put soooooo much time and energy into. I realize that I was not a perfect wife, nobody is, but I do know that I know I fought a good fight and in the end THAT is where I get my peace. I know that I did all I could to make it work, even though it didnt go my way. I have lost out on too many things during this process, but have gained so much as well. I have really gotten to know ME, and I realized that I dont need anyone else to reassure me that who I am is enough.
I had a dream last week, I have VERY vivid and used to be mostly stressful dreams, and I went to petsmart to pick out a lizard to accompany my boys pet chameleon. And as I was looking in all the small glass tanks a catapillar caught my eye, it was the exact one from ALICE and WONDERLAND!! He was plump and colorful and smoking a pipe, of course! He even had the little hands and boots on his feet! It really was CRAZY!! Anyway in this dream, I debated on buying him, WHY u ask? Because I didnt know what kind of Butterfly he would be!! So you can look at this crazy dream as just a crazy dream, but since my dreams usually coincide with my emotions and what chaos is going on, it seems to me that is a fear of mine. What if I end up the same way after another marriage? What if I think the person I marry is all the colorful wonderful things and ends up to be all show? Scares the CRAP out of me! I have had very few family members in this position, and of course not this EXACT one, and they end up in the mirror image of the first one!
Maybe I shouldn't even think too much on it. I want my kids to grow up and see that their dad and I are happy, even if we aren't together and happy. They deserve to see me with someone that calls me during the day because he just has 5 mins to make me laugh, and someone to giggle in bed over super lame things that only we would find hilarious. They deserve to know the difference in a happy healthy relationship, I just wish they didnt have to learn this way.

Darla

SO anyone that has seen the movie little rascals will def appreciate this story!
Q loves to snuggle her mommy, in fact every morning after I get the kiddos up and dressed and out the door, this little sweetheart says
"oh after MY kids leave you will snuggle me?!"
and I do love to sleep so this is a goooooood combo!
Really how can you say no to that?! So every morning after HER kids
leave we climb into my HUGE bed and she holds my hand and sucks
her thumb with the other hand and we watch cartoons til she is done snuggling me!
Well we were laying in my bed the other am and Lexa was on the one
side then Q, then me and we were both asleep and we are awakened
to the sound of Q as loud as she could say......
"dear darla, I hate your stinkin guts, you make me vomit,
you are scum between my toes"
I literally was laughing outloud at my lil chubby Q repeating
the lines to the movie, word for word! What a doll!
and to top it off after we settled back in to our snoozes she
started singing you are so beautiful to me! hahahahah!
LOVE her!!